Cocoon is an attempt to document my state of mind during the corona Lockdowns.
During my Self-Isolation I tried to understand what was happening around me and inside of me. Photography became a tool that helped me not only to document the process but also trace my feelings and thoughts and to organize them. It became the only way for me to hold on to this contradictory and difficult time and to be able to grasp it.
While I feel like I'm being part of an experiment that I haven't signed up for, photography helps me to keep going.
May 4, Monday
I looked at the moon and realized that this will be the second time I will look at the full moon since the lockdown. It was only than that I realized that two months had passed. Time goes by too slow and too fast at the same time.
Dezember 29, Tuesday
I feel empty, no energy left inside of me. Being awake is so exhausting that I have to lay down every two hours.
Dezember 22, Tuesday
Seconds, Seconds, Seconds, Seconds,
Minutes, Minutes, Minutes,
Dezember 21, Monday
My mother was diagnosed with covid and brought into the hospital immidiately.
Dezember 24, Monday
Only seeing my parents through windows. They can´t see my face. I am wearing a mask. It´s christmas eve.
January 03, Sunday
Stayed at my friends place, without my friend. Ten days self quarantine. It´s time to go home.
She stayed with this guy, not sure how it went. I feel like I am an invador at someone elses place.
My headdache is killing me since I arrived.
Things are weird. She dropped me off three hours before my flight.
I want to go home.