Cocoon
Cocoon is an attempt to document my state of mind during the corona Lockdowns.
During my Self-Isolation I tried to understand what was happening around me and inside of me. Photography became a tool that helped me not only to document the process but also trace my feelings and thoughts and to organize them. It became the only way for me to hold on to this contradictory and difficult time and to be able to grasp it.
While I feel like I'm being part of an experiment that I haven't signed up for, photography helps me to keep going.
May 4, Monday
Full Moon
I looked at the moon and realized that this will be the second time I will look at the full moon since the lockdown. It was only than that I realized that two months had passed. Time goes by too slow and too fast at the same time.
Dezember 29, Tuesday
Sleep
I feel empty, no energy left inside of me. Being awake is so exhausting that I have to lay down every two hours.
April 18, Saturday
Bubble
Living in this ... contradictory reality, which is characterized by distance and hygiene, gives me the feeling of living more than ever before in a bubble. I have switched off my thoughts and withdrawn emotionally. I take more baths than usual. They give me ease.
Dezember 22, Tuesday
Seconds, Seconds, Seconds, Seconds,
Minutes, Minutes, Minutes,
Hours, Hours,
Days...
Dezember 21, Monday
Mother
My mother was diagnosed with covid and brought into the hospital immidiately.
Dezember 24, Monday
Only seeing my parents through windows. They can´t see my face. I am wearing a mask. It´s christmas eve.
Dezember 25, Friday
Christmas
I am alone. My Father´s christmas dinner was delivered in a box. My Mother is still in the hospital
January 03, Sunday
Home
Stayed at my friends place, without my friend. Ten days self quarantine. It´s time to go home.
She stayed with this guy, not sure how it went. I feel like I am an invador at someone elses place.
My headdache is killing me since I arrived.
Things are weird. She dropped me off three hours before my flight.
I want to go home.
