Cocoon
Cocoon is an attempt to document my state of mind during the corona Lockdowns.
During my Self-Isolation I tried to understand what was happening around me and inside of me. I began to photograph myself which helped me not only to document the days in the lockdowns but also trace my feelings and thoughts and to organize them. During that process photography became a tool for me to hold on to this contradictory and difficult time and to be able to grasp it.
While I feel like we are being part of an experiment that none of us signed up for, photography helps me to keep going.
April, Monday
Full Moon
I looked at the moon and realized that this will be the second time I will look at the full moon since the lockdown. It was only than that I realized that two months had passed. Time goes by too slow and too fast at the same time.
Dezember 29, Tuesday
Sleep
I feel empty, no energy left inside of me. Being awake is so exhausting that I have to lay down every two hours.
March 28, Saturday
Bubble
Living in this ... contradictory reality, which is characterized by distance and hygiene, gives me the feeling of living more than ever before in a bubble. I have switched off my thoughts and withdrawn emotionally. I take more baths than usual. They give me ease.
Dezember 22, Tuesday
Seconds, Seconds, Seconds, Seconds,
Minutes, Minutes, Minutes,
Hours, Hours,
Days...
Dezember 21, Monday
Mother
My mother was diagnosed with covid and brought into the hospital immidiately. We do not know if she will make it. She has asthma. I fear for her life.
Dezember 24, Monday
Only seeing my parents through windows. We can´t see each others faces. It´s christmas eve. My mother is still trying to fight covid in the hospital. She gets weaker day by day.
Dezember 25, Friday
Christmas
I am alone staying at the apartment of my dear friend. My Father´s christmas dinner was delivered in a box. My Mother is still in the hospital
January 03, Sunday
Home
Ten days self quarantine in someone elses appartment.
I have migrene since I arrived.
It´s time to go home.
